im in a surprisingly good mood.
just got back in town from memphis, did most of my homework, just researching french music for my french semester presentation left, so not too hard and actually kind of interesting.
My house smells like christmas because the plug in air freshener thing is alternating christmas scents lol.
i got my parents xmas presents almost done at black friday, and im planning out what to get/make my friends since im pretty much broke,but oh well. im excited to get them.
the only downside is school tomorrow, but who knows, maybe it wont suck completely? lol.
music, how i love thee.
live in chicago, how i yearn for thee.
that better get here tomorrow lol.
im so jealous some people already have it,
oh well i suppose.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
don't you just love the holidays?
losing two best friends.
third favorite band breaking up.
cleaning all day.
"family time" all tomorrow.
sure to be full of arguments as to why me being vegetarian is stupid.
don't you just love the holidays??
ugh. i need a hug.
third favorite band breaking up.
cleaning all day.
"family time" all tomorrow.
sure to be full of arguments as to why me being vegetarian is stupid.
don't you just love the holidays??
ugh. i need a hug.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
im fucking crying.
i love you boys.
i can't believe its over.
you made some of the best music ive ever heard, getting me through days i thought i wouldnt be able to get through.
im so happy i got to see you on the hct, although i wish i would have made it out another show.
ugh.
today is an absolute epic fail. ]=
so, leave yourself for somebody else
Monday, November 24, 2008
saw cinderella in a party dress
hm...
im in an... interesting? mood.
i need sleep.
and less homework.
and no french test.
and money.
ugh.
i kinda just wanna stay at home all break and wallow in my lonliness.
pathetic? yes.
gr. i hope i get over this mood soon.
im in an... interesting? mood.
i need sleep.
and less homework.
and no french test.
and money.
ugh.
i kinda just wanna stay at home all break and wallow in my lonliness.
pathetic? yes.
gr. i hope i get over this mood soon.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
edward cullen here i come...
off to goof off at the mall for a bit before watching twilight.
yayyyyyy.
lol. im excited if you couldnt tell.
not to mention can't wait to get out of this god damned house.
yayyyyyy.
lol. im excited if you couldnt tell.
not to mention can't wait to get out of this god damned house.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Does your heart echo like a hall, ‘Cause there’s no one there at all ?
yep.
so if anyone actually read the rant that was previously posted there im sorry.
i guess i just had to get it all out there. and now i can take it back and pretend im some nice composed little girl who totally understands herself and how the world works. because no one wants to see a car wreck. we're always just hoping that someone better than us will be there when something that tragic happens. i guess im still waiting for someone to come up to the window and ask if im okay.
although sometimes no one will show up. so you gotta fix yourself. and im beginning to think thats the case in my situation.
i should really stop relying on others and practice this crazy new idea called self reliance.
hm...
wish me luck?
its times like this when i wish he loved me more than anything.
i hate that we don't talk anymore.
i hate that he thinks i wouldn't miss him.
"Almost all the time, you just tell yourself you're loving somebody when you're just using them. This only looks like love."
-invisible monsters
so if anyone actually read the rant that was previously posted there im sorry.
i guess i just had to get it all out there. and now i can take it back and pretend im some nice composed little girl who totally understands herself and how the world works. because no one wants to see a car wreck. we're always just hoping that someone better than us will be there when something that tragic happens. i guess im still waiting for someone to come up to the window and ask if im okay.
although sometimes no one will show up. so you gotta fix yourself. and im beginning to think thats the case in my situation.
i should really stop relying on others and practice this crazy new idea called self reliance.
hm...
wish me luck?
its times like this when i wish he loved me more than anything.
i hate that we don't talk anymore.
i hate that he thinks i wouldn't miss him.
"Almost all the time, you just tell yourself you're loving somebody when you're just using them. This only looks like love."
-invisible monsters
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
give me anger. flash. give me vengeance. flash.
give me friday??
im so sick of this week already and its only tuesday. grawrrr.
all i feel like doing is reading and watching dawsons creek. i feel like im getting sick. i better not get the flu cuz one of my friends ex boyfriends was in the hospital with it and she went to visit him yesterday...
ill kill someone if i do.
my life=boring.
dec 2nd is too long away and its getting harder to be excited for anything when i dont even have time to think anymore.
i need music. i need to just drench myself in loud, random music for like an hour. after that im sure ill be fine.
im so sick of this week already and its only tuesday. grawrrr.
all i feel like doing is reading and watching dawsons creek. i feel like im getting sick. i better not get the flu cuz one of my friends ex boyfriends was in the hospital with it and she went to visit him yesterday...
ill kill someone if i do.
my life=boring.
dec 2nd is too long away and its getting harder to be excited for anything when i dont even have time to think anymore.
i need music. i need to just drench myself in loud, random music for like an hour. after that im sure ill be fine.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Give me malice. Flash. Give me detached existentialist ennui.
i finally just went out and bought invisible monsters.
screw the library for losing it.
mean people=lame.
i honestly can't even imagine how annoying it must be for keltie having to deal with stupid immature fangirls who test their relationship constantly with their hateful emails and rude judgment.
life is pretty okay in my world lately. im really tired. about to go watch desperate housewives lmao.
screw the library for losing it.
mean people=lame.
i honestly can't even imagine how annoying it must be for keltie having to deal with stupid immature fangirls who test their relationship constantly with their hateful emails and rude judgment.
life is pretty okay in my world lately. im really tired. about to go watch desperate housewives lmao.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
they made a statue of us, and put it on a mountain top
Bonjour!
je suis heureuse, et j'aime la musique.
so my sister got this coupon-y thing to like make a scrap book thing online of your pictures and then they send it to you and she gave it to me so im currently making a panic book! =]
im such a dorkwad.
oh well. hehe.
its making my day looking through all these panic pics. little eye liner-ed short hair, mustacheless spencer is something i'd forgotten about for a while lol.
ha
sorry im boring lol.
oh! i got a one hundred on that dumb recitation thing. so im happy.
and i practiced my trumpet today until my lips were numb. the super high notes are getting easier, which is good since i have stupid first part in like all my music.
ahh.
okay sorry.
au revoir!
je suis heureuse, et j'aime la musique.
so my sister got this coupon-y thing to like make a scrap book thing online of your pictures and then they send it to you and she gave it to me so im currently making a panic book! =]
im such a dorkwad.
oh well. hehe.
its making my day looking through all these panic pics. little eye liner-ed short hair, mustacheless spencer is something i'd forgotten about for a while lol.
ha
sorry im boring lol.
oh! i got a one hundred on that dumb recitation thing. so im happy.
and i practiced my trumpet today until my lips were numb. the super high notes are getting easier, which is good since i have stupid first part in like all my music.
ahh.
okay sorry.
au revoir!
Thursday, November 13, 2008
quick post
just to express my utter love for extensions on assignments and new alternative versions from panic.
=]
im hoping tomorrow turns out good.
=]
im hoping tomorrow turns out good.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
i is stupid
and i can't figure out how to follow were so blogging.
or the william beckett blog.
or pete's blog.
why must i be so stupid??
or the william beckett blog.
or pete's blog.
why must i be so stupid??
"We were certainly uncertain, at least i'm pretty sure i am...
well we didn't need the water but we just built that good god dam(n)."
ahh modest mouse. wonderful music for a tuesday off if i do say so myself.
no where near panic level.
listened to pretty. odd. on cd earlier, haven't done that in forever.
its so much better than off of itunes in my opinion.
not sure what im doing today.
memorizing the declaration of independence... ]=
maybe hanging out with my friend who ive knows since well, i was born.
hopefully its not terribly awkward since we've been drifting apart lately. oh well.
we'll see.
ahh modest mouse. wonderful music for a tuesday off if i do say so myself.
no where near panic level.
listened to pretty. odd. on cd earlier, haven't done that in forever.
its so much better than off of itunes in my opinion.
not sure what im doing today.
memorizing the declaration of independence... ]=
maybe hanging out with my friend who ive knows since well, i was born.
hopefully its not terribly awkward since we've been drifting apart lately. oh well.
we'll see.
Monday, November 10, 2008
maybe im just slow but..
LIVE IN CHICAGO IS AVAILABLE FOR PRESALE.
watch this have happened like a week ago and i missed it...
oh well.
i was in a shitty mood, and now im ECSTATIC especially because its like twenty bucks cheaper than i expected.
watch this have happened like a week ago and i missed it...
oh well.
i was in a shitty mood, and now im ECSTATIC especially because its like twenty bucks cheaper than i expected.
On a rainy Monday...
actually that's a lie,
its not raining. if it were i'd be in a MUCH better mood than i am right now.
screw going to school just to get homework to do on our day off.
screw playing the worst pep band music ever created until i can't feel my lips anymore.
i love band, but really, i feel like lately we havent played any of my favorite music ]=.
and im sick again. which is NOT okay.
my friends...
ach idek.
one of them i feel like needs a mind of her own.
and two others i just dont meld with that well anymore.
one seems to have completely forgotten about me,
and the rest aren't really that close of friends anyway.
frustration. i hate being alone.
i was totally in a good mood this morning in early bird art, working on my panic piece, drawing the four of them in concert, reliving every amazing minute of the last concert,
when i find out one of my other friends decides to draw panic for her art project...
like no. its not THAT hard to be original. i mean really. she could have any other time during the year. but of course its now...
so instead of actually doing any art she just sits on the computer looking at their pics all day.
yes,
they are the most beautiful creatures to ever grace the universe,
but idk. i just think shes way too concerned with their looks and not enough with THEM.
which bothers me. a lot.
ach. sorry for the rant...
maybe ill post again later in a better mood...
its not raining. if it were i'd be in a MUCH better mood than i am right now.
screw going to school just to get homework to do on our day off.
screw playing the worst pep band music ever created until i can't feel my lips anymore.
i love band, but really, i feel like lately we havent played any of my favorite music ]=.
and im sick again. which is NOT okay.
my friends...
ach idek.
one of them i feel like needs a mind of her own.
and two others i just dont meld with that well anymore.
one seems to have completely forgotten about me,
and the rest aren't really that close of friends anyway.
frustration. i hate being alone.
i was totally in a good mood this morning in early bird art, working on my panic piece, drawing the four of them in concert, reliving every amazing minute of the last concert,
when i find out one of my other friends decides to draw panic for her art project...
like no. its not THAT hard to be original. i mean really. she could have any other time during the year. but of course its now...
so instead of actually doing any art she just sits on the computer looking at their pics all day.
yes,
they are the most beautiful creatures to ever grace the universe,
but idk. i just think shes way too concerned with their looks and not enough with THEM.
which bothers me. a lot.
ach. sorry for the rant...
maybe ill post again later in a better mood...
Sunday, November 9, 2008
I'm always looking for a joy ride through the brightest part of this town
23 days!!!!!
until live in chicago.
then after that, is christmas. I'm hoping these next few months are absolutely spectacular, even if i don't have a concert to look forward to for the first time in forever.
honda civic tour, vans warped tour, rock band live tour,
i swear i just live concert to concert,
savoring every bit of the insanity for the 3 hour sets, and trying to make that feeling last until the next.
Luckily Panic seems to understand my need for them, and made a concert dvd with amazing bonus features.
now if i can only wait until it comes out...
So marching band is now absolutely completely done, well except for like 2 more parades. i thought i'd suddenly have all this time for the things id been missing, but no, of course i don't.
im still forced to be doing something other than have fun.
like memorizing a huge chunk of the declaration of independence. like no, wtf.
grr.
too much trig homework,
trying to figure out what the heck my french teacher is talking about...
i can't wait till tuesday when i can (hopefully) just relax.
blah. yeah im pretty sure that was the most boring post ever made. sorry people =/.
until live in chicago.
then after that, is christmas. I'm hoping these next few months are absolutely spectacular, even if i don't have a concert to look forward to for the first time in forever.
honda civic tour, vans warped tour, rock band live tour,
i swear i just live concert to concert,
savoring every bit of the insanity for the 3 hour sets, and trying to make that feeling last until the next.
Luckily Panic seems to understand my need for them, and made a concert dvd with amazing bonus features.
now if i can only wait until it comes out...
So marching band is now absolutely completely done, well except for like 2 more parades. i thought i'd suddenly have all this time for the things id been missing, but no, of course i don't.
im still forced to be doing something other than have fun.
like memorizing a huge chunk of the declaration of independence. like no, wtf.
grr.
too much trig homework,
trying to figure out what the heck my french teacher is talking about...
i can't wait till tuesday when i can (hopefully) just relax.
blah. yeah im pretty sure that was the most boring post ever made. sorry people =/.
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