Does your heart echo like a hall, ‘Cause there’s no one there at all ?

yep.
so if anyone actually read the rant that was previously posted there im sorry.
i guess i just had to get it all out there. and now i can take it back and pretend im some nice composed little girl who totally understands herself and how the world works. because no one wants to see a car wreck. we're always just hoping that someone better than us will be there when something that tragic happens. i guess im still waiting for someone to come up to the window and ask if im okay.
although sometimes no one will show up. so you gotta fix yourself. and im beginning to think thats the case in my situation.
i should really stop relying on others and practice this crazy new idea called self reliance.
hm...
wish me luck?

its times like this when i wish he loved me more than anything.
i hate that we don't talk anymore.
i hate that he thinks i wouldn't miss him.

"Almost all the time, you just tell yourself you're loving somebody when you're just using them. This only looks like love."
-invisible monsters